Seasons Change...Mad Things Rearrange

Ahh, the brustling leaves, the color change in the leaves, the wind blowing across my face, the fact that I can sleep with my windows open versus my a/c being on, the day light hours shortening, the perfect night breeze...all of these being indicative (well, in addition to the calendar) that the season has changed from summer to fall...which happens to be my favorite time of year (it used to be winter, but winters in the south are just nasty, not beautiful like back home). As I reflect on all of the things that have happened within this last year (or I could even go so far as to say last 10 years), I recognize how the seasons changing cover so much more than the weather!
When I was a teenager, I used to believe that by the time I was 25, I'd be married with 2.5 kids and a dog. Now, at one point, I was married and I STILL have a dog, but I have yet to have any children. I honestly can't see me right now with any. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore the wee-ones! I just feel like a big kid myself, and it's funny...I used to think 25 was old!! Now, I know when the time comes, I'll be the best parent I possibly can, but since I have a choice in the matter, I'll wait for 1...I'd like for my child not to be a bastard 2. I want to dedicate more time to catapulting my career. So the season for me having immediate baby fever is over.

I've also been reflecting on some relationships I've had...and by relationships, I don't mean romantic ones, just relationships in general. There have been some people who I've come across and at the time, you couldn't tell me that they were seasonal. People who I thought were going to be permanent fixtures in my life...it's amazing how with the changing of a season, people who you knew would be around forever are ushered out to make way for the season that's approaching (for whatever reason). The ironic thing is that for each one of the people whom I thought were fixtures who are gone, there have been some to come back into my life whom I NEVER thought I'd have a relationship with again. I guess there really is nothing new under the sun. Everything by design...Things that I thought were...were not. And things that I thought were not...actually were...or at least for the time being. Who knows, this revolving door of seasons is something I can't even wrap my mind around. I just know that I enjoy them all. Winter, spring, summer and fall. I enjoy what I can out of them and anxiously anticipate what the new ones will bring. If I've learned anything within these 32 years, it's that the only constant in life is change. I never would've thought I'd be where I am at this point in my life and it's not a bad place at all, just not where I expected to be. So to quote one of my favorite rap groups of all time, The Fugees, it is very true that "seasons change, mad things re-arrange." Enjoy your season!